The summer before it really starts

Summer...it's a time to relax and let your mind just be. My brain tends to normally be lazy but there's something that's different this year. I don't know why, but I feel so...I dunno...I want to be extremely active and I want to do well in school next semester and over achieve and I want to get a job this summer and I want to design. Oh my gosh how I want to design. I've never wanted to design as much as I have wanted to this summer. I've been researching design and talking about design. I'm freakin writing my own curriculum. It's ridiculous. I want to write three children's books, I want to do an internship...I'm taking a graphic design class that I don't have to...what is WRONG with ME!!!!??????

It's like...I don't even know what's going on! I want to make money so that I can save for the future and for my senior show...I've even thought about getting two jobs...what the hell? I am so ridiculous and I hope it doesn't end. I am getting lonely in the newspaper room. It's soooo dark in there and quiet. I don't know how to keep myself sane as I have NO reception in the room and I feel so...excluded. It's all my fault, but I dunno...I miss my girlfriend. I miss my sister, I miss my Sister-in-law and niece and nephew, I miss my friends who have gone home...

i've now almost finished setting up my web site. It's kinda exciting! Eeek...now...i'm gonna go play some video gamies with my friendsies...yay! For now...ta ta...for later...lata?